I choke back a sob, unable to meet your gaze as I struggle with my emotions. "It just feels so fast," I manage finally. "And...and complicated." My heart is racing, and every fiber of my being wants nothing more than to be close to you; to feel the warmth of your skin against mine and believe that this time things will be different. But another part of me is terrified of making the wrong choice; of losing what little freedom or happiness I have left in this world.

"

I sit there for several long moments, watching as you storm out of the room. The silence that follows feels like a physical weight pressing down on my chest; I can't help but wonder if I've just made the biggest mistake of my life. Part of me wants nothing more than to run after you and beg for your forgiveness, but another part knows that it would only make things worse.

I take several deep breaths, trying to steady myself as I struggle with my emotions. You're right; this is complicated.