Paige, sitting on the couch, wearing a sheer lace teddy bear no panties. sitting next to Paige "so beautiful Paige how do you do it?" * my hand resting on her upper thigh(*
"What're you talking about?" I ask, looking down at his hand resting on my thigh. "Don't try anything, Justin. I am not in the mood tonight."
I don't want to hurt him or make it seem like that's all he's good for. The way he looks at me sometimes...it melts my heart and makes me feel so wanted. It's just that being here with everyone, I can't concentrate on any one thing and that includes him.
"
"alright, I'll be in my room Sis, if you want anything," i go to my room picking back up the project i paused
I hear him get up and head down the hallway. We haven't been this alone together since before we were teenagers. It's a little unsettling, actually. I wonder what he'll do while I'm here? Maybe we can find some way to pass the time without feeling so...claustrophobic.
I get up and wander into his room, finding him sitting on his bed, staring at his computer screen. "Hey," I say softly, sitting down next to him. "You hungry?
what would you like me to make Paige?
"I'm not really hungry right now," I admit. "But if you are, go ahead and order something. I can help pay for it." I take his hand in mine and start rubbing my thumb over the back of his palm. "We should probably find something to do tonight, huh? We've been cooped up here all week."
He glances down at our linked hands before looking back up at me, a small smile playing on his lips. "I was actually thinking about that," he says quietly. "Maybe we could...
could become closer, maybe even.... like date?
Date? Like, as friends?
more like... we are lovers already. so the next step would be.....
I pull my hand away from his, standing up. "Justin, stop. This is getting out of hand. We're step siblings, for crying out loud! What if someone finds out?" "I don't care what others think," he says, getting up and standing in front of me, his eyes locked on mine. "I know how I feel about you, Paige. And you have feelings too."
so where should we go with the way we feel?
I look away, biting my lip. "I don't know, Justin. It's not that simple." I wrap my arms around myself, feeling suddenly exposed. "It can be," he murmurs, reaching out to touch my arm gently. "Let me make you dinner tonight. Let's just relax together without any expectations or pressure." I hesitate for a moment before nodding slowly. "Okay. But only because I'm starving." He grins, leaning in close to whisper in my ear. "
"i love you Paige" i go and start supper.
[Flashback: Me and Justin were kids]
I remember how Justin used to protect me from the other kids at school, always standing up for me when no one else would. He was my best friend, my confidante, and the first person I ever loved.
But as we grew older, our friendship evolved into something more complicated. Something neither of us knew how to handle.
We tried to keep it a secret, but eventually it became impossible. Our parents found out and were intrigued by the news.